As I wrote my last post, I was thinking what others think of the adult industry? The internet is more open to ideas and ways of life then small town people who hide behind closed doors never truly revealing their true self.
I know that there is many that view adult pay sites and their friends and neighbours have no clue and would look down on them, but why. It is such a huge industry I wonder why no one thinks anyone else is looking? Who do you think is? I have some friends who are very 'prudish' and believe that only lower forms of life are involved in this, I laugh to myself if they only knew. The upstanding lawyer you pay thousands to enjoys the services of the lady of the night every Thursday afternoon when he is supposedly having a lunch meeting. The city councillor who has a premium subscription to all girls all night. The stay at home mother of 2 who drives the nice car and wears nice clothes, sidelines as a web stripper afterhours. The secrets of our society could bulldoze the nieve. Would it change your opinion of them in the sense you know them as now if you knew? Why they are not forcing it on you, or treating you any differently then before.
The adult industry is made up of more "normal" people then famous. Yes it is grounded with the big names but it is alot of the small ones that keep it growing. It is not a fad it has been here for decades and is not going anywhere, it will evolve with technology. It has gone from pin ups and cabaret, brothels, magazines, movies, live performers, escorts etc etc. Where do you think the next area will expand too?

The path money can lead us

I always seem to be searching for ways to increase the money stream in our household. For various reasons from wanting my husband home more so have to increase my income to accomodate his being lowered. To saving for a purchase or vacation or pretty much anything. I have always been a saver, my parents kid that I was a miser when i was young, i would squirrel away money anywhere I could find a place. It didn't help that I had a thief as a sister and probably the main reason i hid my money to keep her from taking it. I still have many piggy banks along with my youngest as we both share the love of money and saving it. I have now added about 6 savings accounts to my collection. I don't know why i have different ones just figured I would forget about one or two and have a wonderful surprise sometime down the road.
I have been involved in many different businesses and had varying success. I will not bash any as I have learned from them all. My current career of customer service from home is my longest so far, as it works so well with my life and I enjoy it as well. I have been doing this since my youngest was a year old wishing I had started before I ended my previous career as they would have worked very well hours wise.
The path that I have lead in the job/career area has been very wide path. I went to school to be a Registered Massage Therapist, worked at a Brewery, then onto various bars and nightclubs and masseuse (not rmt)making a very comfortable wage, then to an automotive company doing customs and then to a trucking company doing everything from billing to dispatching. Through everything I have always had some on the side home business as well, from selling lingerie, to glow sticks, typing up resumes, web chats, and transcriptionist. Each position had its downfalls but also great memories and strong points. I figure you have to try before you can make a decision clearly. Some may not like or respect the path I have lead but it is me, it has helped make who I am and I am better for what I have done. There is many things that I will do again as I see them as great benefits in my life, time will tell when it is right to begin again.
I love that my husband has been right beside me supporting me from day one 12 years ago. He is my cheerleading squad and shoulder to cry on and ear to listen. Can't wait to see where the next fork in the road takes us, but I will enjoy the ride there, bumpy or smooth, we have to buckle up and get going.

Happy Holidays

As the Christmas school holiday approaches, the busier we become. Getting presents wrapping and delivering them gets stressful with the limited amount of time. The simplest things seem to take more time now that the snow has fallen. I am thankful that we are not 2 hrs north of here as they have over 100cm of sno and we only have maybe 3 cms. I am also thankful that we no longer have to do the weekly drive to pick up and drop off my oldest risking our lives through that weather.
This year has been a first for many things. My youngest is in kindergarten and I now have 2-3 full days without her at home. I am still adjusting, sometimes I am at a lose to what to do with my time, other times it goes by to fast. This week in particular it is going by too fast. We have our annual playgroup potluck christmas party Tuesday and we are buying presents for 9 of her good friends and making chocolate lolly pops for the other 10. Then Tuesday afternoon she has her co-op kindergarten Christmas party with Santa, another 6 lolly pops needed , presents for the teachers and 2 items of supplies for the school and then Wednesday is her big school Christmas party where we need 20 more lolly pops and a gift for the teacher and librarian. I love the Christmas spirit of giving and glad that she is not expecting huge expensive gifts for everyone, but the little gifts take time to find and make and at times I just can't seem to find the extra in the busy schedule. I truly love Christmas for the time of giving and being with family and friends and wish it was all year. I am thankful that I can pass the spirit of giving and caring and kindness on and see it shine through my girls and know that I did something right. It is one of the little bonuses of being Mom.
I take my hat off to all of those Super Mom's who have more then 1 under 5 and make tons of goodies to hand out and the perfectly wrapped presents and seem to put Martha Stewart to the test.

The Mother of Another's Child

Life can take you on a curvy up hill path or lead you through the easy streets. It all depends on the choices you make and the strength you have to follow through. Not all hard roads are that bad. The destination can be a wonderful thing just getting there can be the most difficult thing in your life. I speak from 12 years of experience. I am the mother of a 14 yr old and 4 yr old. One is my daughter of my heart the other the daughter of my blood and I love them both for everything they are and will be. I wouldn't change any of it for anything.

Raising a teenager is already trying at times now add in that she is not yours by blood and that she has been all but abandoned by her bio-mother it can make for some very hard times. A plus for our family and our direct relationship I have been here since 3 yrs old. I have a place in her heart as she has in mine. I might not have always been Mom but I've always been there no matter what I am called or thought of.

We have many moments that I wish never happened and I know I will have another go around in 9 or 10 yrs with my youngest. I will be more prepared for what is coming I hope.
The 'normal' teenage issues have been few and far between and easy to deal with it is the pyschological things that have been done or not done that is the hardest.
Trying to protect your child from their own mother is the hardest thing in the world. I never discourage contact or the love, just make sure I am always here to pick up the pieces from the damage that is caused again and again. That can be the most difficult thing to see your child fall to pieces by someone who should love them more then life themselves. The anger, frustration, and the rage at having someone in my childs life who I can't make disappear. I pray that it will change, that one day people will realize what they have neglected and be thankful and grateful for what they have and respect and care. Even if that day comes I will wake up every morning loving my girls for being themselves and go to bed each night loving them just a little more having been blessed to spent one more day with them. You know where to go with a doubt